Friday, July 09, 2010

The Missing Smile

It's difficult to remain calm some days.

The medication is helping but it also numbs me, it's odd not feeling as deeply as I always have. I wonder if I have betrayed myself, taken away my personality and the elements that make me who I am.

But the damaging lows were more frequent than the soaring highs and that could never be sustainable.

I lost my job yesterday, unexpectedly and that was a blow to my ego. I guess there is never a good time to lose your job but this is a particuarly difficult month financially.

So right now I'm just swimming along through each day...existing. Apparently the fog will clear but all I want right now is to feel again...
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