Moments Suspended In Time
Monday, October 23, 2006
H raised his hand to me tonight. He had every intention of hitting me. Lucky for me I come from an abusive family and I saw that blow coming a mile away.
I took Baby M to the doctor's and when I came out he was waiting outside for me. He was irrational, screaming at me. I was very very calm...told him he was upsetting Baby M, perhaps this wasn't the right time or the place.
It esculated out of hand quicker than I could blink, then it was a blur of me trying to get her in the car, him yelling at me and slamming the car door shut as I was trying to put her in the car...then he snatched her and made a bolt for his car.
I had her back in my arms in a heartbeat, where she sobbed and sobbed until her tears ran down my neck in a sticky mess..all the while H was still yelling at me. I finally got her in the car and buckled into her car seat then he took a swing at me, then as I scrambled to get into the car he wrenched the door open and continued his tirade of abuse.
I finally got the door shut and locked and drove straight to the police station where I laid a complaint against him. I have until tomorrow to decide if I want to extend that to an AVO (apprehended violence order).
Irrespective I am seeking interium full custody of Baby M until it goes to family court, which may take a while.
He scared me. This man I spent six years of my life with. The man I had a child with. The man I loved enough to marry.
I feel like I never knew him.
I am terrified for Baby M...that he will turn up at her creche and take her (legally he can)...that he will run with her. His family has money, today he threatened me with lawyers, with a custody battle...his parent's would hire the best lawyer possible for him, whereas I would be relying on legal aid...my chances of winning would be slim. He has family support, I have no family...I am a single parent with a variable income, he is on a good income which is guarenteed.
I can't think like this...but today I saw a side of him I never knew existed and now I don't know what he is capable of.
Mermaid Girl